A long time between thinks…

It’s been a while since I blogged. It’s been a crazy past few months. I finished my Karuna course with much to think about. Much to consider in this life. And life appears different to me now compared to what it did before the course. It’s been a journey into finding out what really matters for me in this life. So, in these past weeks where I have neglected this poor blog of mine, I have been busily “cleaning house”. Not so much the structure in which I dwell – more so the space that dwells in me.

I downed writing tools during this time. A deliberate and difficult thing to do. I think as a test to see, in reprioritising everything, whether I really did want to continue this writing life. I got on with all the other things that a writing life has me neglect.

I did expect  that the extra time I had by not writing would empty out some space, and that life would be less crazy. And technically, it was. Not writing has created space. Mostly, a big empty hole in my middle. And that is driving me crazy. In turning my back on this thing I claim to love, I realise how much I have missed it. And I have longed for it. And like a child who is forbidden candy, I have craved to sneak a piece and savour it, tucked away where noone else will see me.

In challenging my commitment to a writing life, I realise that me not writing creates more chaos that calm. Me not writing creates more void than space. Me not writing creates the sense that I have shunned my closest friend just to get the dirty laundry done. What I failed to realise is that writing is a part of me, a fundamental strand of my DNA that ties my spirit to this external life. It feeds me joy.

I think that’s what really matters for me in this life. Finding words. Finding joy. Finding out I’m smitten with this writing life. Long may she live!

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8 thoughts on “A long time between thinks…

  1. Such a beautiful post, Lynn. I like to take little breaks away from writing, just to check that I still enjoy it and what my life would be like without it. Writing (even on the bad days) seems to bring me peace as well. Good to hear you’re back into it 🙂

  2. Even when I am on a break from writing such as on holidays with my family my writing brain won’t shut down. New ideas keep popping into my head or I see my way through a spot where my plot or a character is stuck. But I think it may be that space that allows the new thoughts to weave their way through.

    • Hi Vicki,

      I agree- I find creating distance between me and my work allows things to ping around in my head and create all kinds of reactions. Although, I find my greatest breakthroughs come in the shower!

  3. Hi Lynn,
    I’m so glad you have Rediscovered the important role Writing is playing in your Life. I love reading your BLOGS and look forward to reading many more. Congratulations with your decision …
    Karen :))

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